The week of the first live show was a wonderful experience! I still can't believe I'm here and I'm just to grateful to The Voice, Seal and to my incredible family and friends for all their support.
The whole top 12 family and the Voice team got really close this week. Everyone was spending hours at the studios, rehearsing, practicing, doing interviews, wardrobe fittings, makeup and hair, playing PS4 (Judah and Hoseah are the ones I'm looking at ;)!) and we had a blast. There was crying, triumph, laughing and frustration, but ultimately it was an incredible learning experience for all of us.
I struggled with the song. I knew Seal gave it to me as a test, so I would be facing adversity and really learn from this week's performance- which was, in hindsight, a great plan. Wrecking Ball is a hard one, and it wasn't 100% tailored to my voice. And that's ok- I had a lot of fun exploring the song, my voice, getting to be in the incredible floating orb set, being dressed in a gorgeous outfit and as a whole; learning, learning, learning. I listened to my soundcheck recordings back constantly to improve, and I was pretty proud of myself for getting the song to where it was given the circumstances!
I came off the stage after my performance feeling amazing. The atmosphere in the audience was wonderful, and I was dancing around to Bojesse's killer performance of 'There's Nothing Holding Me Back' by Shawn Mendes. From what I heard in my in ears (those earphone things we have so we can hear ourselves), I got most of the notes and I thought I did a decent job despite being extremely nervous and struggling with the song.
Listening back to my performance, this was not the case. I was gutted. I hit a lot of bum notes, my pronunciation was weird and I sounded nothing like I did my soundcheck recordings. I didn't want to even touch social media because I knew people would have something to say. Unfortunately, with the way Facebook works, the picture posted by the wonderful Voice social media team crept into my feed a few times and I accidentally read some of the top comments (BIG, BAD MISTAKE).
'Man, that's a bummer' I thought to myself. What was a feeling of relief, excitement and happiness from coming off stage quickly faded into disappointment. I guess when you perform, all you want is to make people feel something, to make them happy and to make yourself happy. I was happy, but I had mostly not achieved the other two goals for performing. My favourite top comment was probably 'YOU SUCK LUCY. WORST VERSION OF WRECKING BALL EVER!!!!!!'. In all seriousness, we were recommended not to read Facebook comments, so I didn't, and Seal was like 'STAY OFF SOCIAL MEDIA'. I steered clear of everything for a day, but I still saw a few negative comments in my texts (with friends unassumingly sending screenshots of them defending me)(I love you guys), DMs and in my tags on various social media.
My performance wasn't good, and that is the truth of it. I'm taking all the constructive criticism to better myself and my singing. I was pretty down for a few days about the whole incident, but then I thought to myself 'this is part of it, this an opportunity to learn and grow'.
I love music, I love performing and I love singing. I want this so bad. As musicians, we put ourselves in front of the world in our most vulnerable state. We all want to make people feel good; we want to motivate, inspire and move people. We get a rush from performing from an audience and from creating music we love, to share with people. The industry works so that in order to make music and performing our career, we often have to be out there for a lot of people to see. With that comes the fact that we are open to criticism, judgement, hate and people's 'opinions'. People will tell you 'you don't deserve to be where you are', that 'they don't get your voice', that you 'are only there because of your age/looks/popularity/being someone's favourite' but the truth is, you're there because you have a passion.
I am far from the best singer, I am far from the best songwriter and I am far from being the best performer. I have so much more learning and work to do. Judah Kelly is there and as incredible as he is because he's being perfecting his craft for years and been on the road as musician. Same with all the other top 12. Rob was there because he has an incredible vocal technique, excellent musicianship, stage presence, persona and drive.
There is a lot of negativity in the world. Everyone will always have something to say about performances like 'her dress is ugly', 'why does he dance like that', 'that set is SO STUPID'. This goes for anything from art to dentistry ('oh my god that dentist was wearing the ugliest sweater. I don't want to go back to him' - this is actually something someone has said to me). I don't know where I'm going with this waffle now, but from being on the other end of mass online hate for the first time in my life, I just urge you even more so than ever to speak your mind in a respectful, kind way. I am never going to say a bad word about any public figure who is doing something harmless ever again, and I feel awful for doing so in the past (even though it was just to my mum). Think about whether you'd say what you're going to comment on a Facebook post to someone's face- how would you feel about that?
And if anyone is ever criticising your art; think about it. What do you think of your performance personally, deep down? Be open to constructive criticism and be truthful! I know that my performance was not great, so I am taking the words of others if I agree with them so I can improve! Yes I was flat, yes my vocals weren't strong and yes I think can do better.
This is such a waffle now. But yes,
be kind. Always.
I hate to be focusing on the negatives, as there was an incredible amount of support! I felt I just needed to address the situation this time.
To all you amazing people who have had my back- I thank you. Thank you so much for believing in me. I am getting around to replying to you all because that is the least I could do. Just know I am grateful for every single one of you.
Onwards and upwards my friends.
I've had an absolute whirlwind time recently. Ups and downs both literally and figuratively, with flights at crazy o'clock in the morning and tears at crazy o'clock at night. It was a rather hormonal week for me, but a busy and exciting one at that!
Side note: count how many times I say the word 'crazy' in this... I should vary my language (my English teacher would be disappointed in me), but I feel that crazy accurately describes my life right now.
It started off with the airing of THE KNOCKOUTS. I was very nervous for this, for I knew how amazingly Brooke and Liz had performed and I did not know if people would like or connect to my performance. However, my nerves were put to rest as it ended up coming up really well on TV and I was proud of my performance upon seeing it. The Voice Australia wardrobe ladies did a fantastic job and I got to wear the incredible sparkly boots and a gorgeous dress from Lenni. The support from you guys was incredible, thank you, thank you, thank you.
Getting through the Knockouts meant it was onto the battles! I was paired with one of Seal's saves from the Knockouts, the talented Camryn Jordans (who was previously on Team Kelly!). We sung Issues by Julia Michaels, which is such a cool song but definitely not something I'd choose for myself. I found it quite a difficult song but I managed to pull it together. I had a blast getting to do the whole choreography and channelling my inner almost non-existent sassy attitude. The outfit I was put in was, again, THE BEST THING EVER (thank you wardrobe!!). It was this Cherry-print top and short combination set, and I had these amazing sparkly boots that were customised by the style team with diamantes. I definitely felt the part thanks to this outfit!
Somehow, I got myself to the lives. I didn't think my performance was my best and my voice did not come off very strong. But, Seal has faith in me (which is SO COOL and I'm so grateful for it) and I got myself a spot in the lives of the Voice Australia Season 6.
I'm currently rehearsing and getting ready for the Lives now. The past week has been one of the most unbelievable times of my entire Voice journey. I can't wait to share everything with you this Sunday (7:00pm, tune into Channel 9 for a good time). On Wednesday, I got to attend the Voice Live Launch party. The lovely gang from Napoleon and Redken did our hair and makeup, and wore this gorgeous dress from Mussen (one of my favourite little boutiques in Canberra). I literally got a ride with Seal to the event with my fellow teammates Berni and Rennie in a gorgeous Mercedes Benz van. We all did a Facebook live and sung an impromptu Kiss From a Rose in the car. WITH SEAL. What is life? We chatted, had some laughs and simply had a normal conversation with Seal on the way to a media event. I still can't believe I'm saying that.
When we got to the venue, there was a red carpet entrance. It was so strange being actually on the red carpet and not watching someone else on it. We stood in front of a Voice/Channel 9 backdrop and there was plenty of camera flashing and clicking. There were group shots, single shots, different angles poses, lots of people talking at us and it was a little overwhelming but still the coolest thing ever. I couldn't believe it was happening.
Berni, Rennie, Seal and I moved on to an interview with THE RICHARD WILKINS. Many of the questions were unavoidably for Seal so Berni, Rennie and I were mostly just standing there smiling awkwardly. It was a very surreal moment.
When we got into the event there were lots of media people waiting to talk to the coaches for interviews and photos, so we were simply left to mingle. The first person I talked to was ALFIE ARCURI (last year's winner of the Voice). The first thing I said to him was 'I LOVE YOU' (why did I do that, oh dear) but luckily, Alfie wasn't even phased and we had a good chat with a few others about the show. After chatting with some other people (mostly my dad), it was time to gather at the back to get ready for our team performances.
We were singing, in our teams, our coaches' songs, so Berni, Rennie and I were singing Kiss From a Rose. It was safe to say we were very nervous. Team Delta opened with a phenomenal version of Delta's song The River. Their harmonies and the contrast in their voices was the best thing ever. Then Team George sang a gorgeous version of Do You Really Wanna Hurt WITH THE MOST BEAUITFUL HARMONIES OOOOOF. Then Team Kelly brought the house down with When Love Takes Over.
Then it was time for Team Seal. Rennie, Berni and I nervously walked up on stage. Sonia Kruger had a chat with Seal and then it was time to sing Kiss From a Rose. It went pretty well and Seal even joined in with us at the end- TALK ABOUT CRAZY. The rest of the night involved meeting people from the media, music and TV industry and I also got to have a chat with Boy George, Kelly Rowland and Delta Goodrem. They were totally normal, casual conversations like we were friends! I have no words to describe the night apart from crazy, surreal, exciting and insane.
I now sit in the Artist Green Room, preparing for tonight's live shows. We've all worked so hard on our performances and I can't wait for Australia to see them. This week has been one of the busiest and most fun one of my life! I'm so grateful for this moment in my life, and hopefully I'll be able to hold onto it for as long as possible.
I have endless amounts of love for you all. I hope you know that! I feel so lucky and I honestly can't believe this is happening to me.
I'll see you tonight through the cameras from The Voice studios. Here's hoping this ride will continue through the weeks to come.
Have a wonderful Sunday evening. Talk soon you wonderful people!
Yep. I did it. I got 'sucked into the world of reality TV', although it was one of the best decisions of my life.
After my blind audition aired and I could finally let my secret out to the world, I had to prepare big mental speeches as to why I went on The Voice for when I next saw many of my music/gig friends. A lot of people I know are very against The Voice and would do their best to hide their disappointment in me for going on it when I told them- but you know what? I've had the best time ever so far on the damn show.
Right from the first audition, the production team were phenomenal. They made sure you were able to be completely prepared for the first audition and had us booked in timeslots so we weren't waiting in lines for five hours. The audition in front of the producers was so much fun and they really took time to get to know us and hear our voices and music. One thing led to another and I landed myself a blind audition. They pretty much let me do what I wanted with the song and I was in control of everything. I didn't want something to be mentioned in my on-screen story? Sure, no problem. Wear that cute dress I love with my performing boots? Cool. They wanted to keep my makeup and hair as natural as possible as I was young and made sure everything was appropriate and that I was doing well.
The duty of care by the team is amazing. They are all the loveliest people; so easy to work with and super helpful and many of them are musicians themselves. I've gotten to work with an incredible live band, meet some of the coolest people (i.e. the AMAZING CONTESTANTS!!!), learn a lot about the music industry, the TV world and myself as an artist and person in general. I'm so grateful for the opportunity, and can't wait to see what happens next!
The night that my blind audition was INSANE. I had no idea people would react the way they did and it made me feel so wonderful and grateful. The audition came across really nicely on TV which I'm really happy about AND lots of people wanted to buy my EP (THANK YOU GUYS!!). Thank you for saying such kind things to me, and I can't believe the support I'm receiving- it's so crazy. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Here's to the next round of The Voice! The blind auditions are now done and dusted, and we are getting ready for the Knockouts which start tomorrow (mine will be on tomorrow!).
Hope you are all having the most wonderful day wherever you are x
PS. A side note to the ladies in the comments on The Voice's Facebook that are getting salty about me being school aged: I am still at school. My parents would never let me give up my year 11 and 12 education for this! I am still doing my exams, handing in my assignments and doing quite well actually. Thank you :)
The past week has been relaxing compared to all the other weeks of my life lately. It was the final week of the two week mid-semester break, and I aimed to get a lot of schoolwork done (it only half happened) but I generally had days where I got to do nothing. I love the doing nothing days, as I have been quite a busy bee over the past few months.
I got to spend time with my favourite people, create music in the comfort of my own house, take naps and get super pumped for the commencement of this years season of the Voice! My really good friend Helen and I journeyed up to Sydney to hang out with our uni friend and all round incredible person Angie! We had a wonderful time which included a pizza and ice-cream movie dinner, fantastic shopping in the very large Sydney malls and amazing markets and THE BEST TERYAKI CHICKEN at Spice Alley and THE BEST GELATO EVERY at Anita Gelato.
Another cool thing that happened was THE CANBERRA YOUTH CITIZEN OF THE YEAR AWARDS! My beautiful year coordinator nominated me for the Arts & Multimedia Award, so I went along to the ceremony expecting just to have a lovely dinner, meet new people and that be it but I ended up winning which was bloody insane. Literally, I had not prepared a speech I was so certain someone else would get it. It is such a huge honour I just cannot believe someone would nominate me for something like that let alone would I be the contender to win! Crazy stuff dudes, crazy stuff. I just want to say a huge THANK YOU to the organisers and sponsors of the awards as well as my school, principal and year coordinator for being so supportive and wonderful to me.
School started today! I was honestly a little sad having to wake up at 7am instead of 11am (boohoo, first world problems hey), and the day was a bit of a slug in terms of getting my brain to work BUT it was great seeing all my friends and favourite teachers again getting back into the swing again. My plan this semester is to try have a more positive outlook on school and set aside a time in the day to remember 3 things I enjoy about school.
Fact: I recently set up an online store for some of the music I've made! At the moment you can get digital copies of my songs Very Best Fight & Message Bank and my EP The Hilltop Sessions and you can order a physical copy of the EP as well if you'd like :)
Thank you for being some of the best people in my life, and thank you for taking the time out to read this. Have a great week! x
Well hello there lovely people.
My dear friend Sophie Edwards has been blogging week by week and recounting what she's been doing rather than trying to fit months and months of stuff into a single blog post (like me), so I'm thinking I may try that.
The past few months have been an absolute whirlwhind. I started year 11- which means my grades now count towards something and work gets a lot harder. It started off rather rocky but I'm getting into the swing of things now. I've never worked harder at school in my life (which I'm proud of) and I've been totally on top of work. This is a first for me. I only had to pull one all nighter the whole term. #proud
I've also been enjoying lots and lots of music related things!
We will start with Googfest. Googfest is Googong's annual festival, and I was lucky enough to be a part of the lineup along with Sneaky Sound System (I KNOW ADHJASFKJA). The rest of the lineup were amazing bands (like Teen Jesus & the Jean Teasers and Slow Turismo), so I was a little bit intimidated getting up there by myself with my guitar and keyboard! The stage was amazing, the sound guys were incredible and I had an absolute blast. About 12,000 people turned up for the evening and the leadup and the event itself was a very insane, mind-boggling time for me.
I was invited to play at Lights! Canberra! Action! which was hands down my favourite local performance I got to do. It's a film festival held during Canberra's Enlighten. The crowd was very large and the response was so warm it was such a wonderful feeling. I actually initially thought I was just background music for it but it ended up turning into a proper performance!
Side note: Enlighten is actually my favourite thing. It's incredible all the effort that goes into the event. If you don't know what Enlighten is: http://enlightencanberra.com.au/ :)
THE NATIONAL FOLK FESTIVAL AKA MY FAVOURITE TIME OF THE YEAR. I have been playing there for 5 years now, but before it was on blackboards and busking. This year, I was a proper paid and booked performer. It was bloody insane, and people even packed out one of the gigs I played. THANK YOU GUYS!!!
I played my first and last performances at the Aviary Rooftop. For those of you who don't know, down by Lake Burley Griffin there is/was this beautiful venue/bar called Aviary Rooftop. It is/was made out of shipping containers and there are 50 billion stairs to get up to it. Every Sunday, Aviary held the 'Sunday Live Sessions' where they invited Canberra musicians to play live sets for an hour each. The view when you play is absolutely breathtaking and the sound system extends throughout the whole long room. The reason I say is/was the bloody National Capital Authority didn't extend the permit for the Westside Village in which Aviary resides, so Stephen and Avi (the lovely owners of Aviary) had to close it down. Aviary Rooftop will be seriously missed by the Canberra community- even as an under 18 human, I've made many good memories at that place.
I missed the final Aviary Rooftop event which sucked a bit, but...
I missed it because of something just as cool as Aviary Rooftop- YO GIRL IS GOING ON THIS SEASON OF THE VOICE.
For proof ;)
I can't tell you how it's going but I'll be sure to let you all know what day my audition is going to air.
I hope you are all having the most wonderful day. I also hope that I am able to keep up my blog posts. Thank you for reading all of this, I love you all so much!
I've tried consistently writing blog posts. It's failed every time, but hopefully this one will continue to be regularly updated for a while. I'll be mostly writing about stuff that's happening with music, however knowing me I'll start oversharing and writing essays about redecorating my room or something.
This is a rather odd time to start a blog, you'd expect someone to start posting in the new year, rather than near Christmas, but I've always been a firm believer in making goals and starting new things whenever instead of waiting for a digit to change in the year.
The 2017 is exactly a week away which freaks me out. I'll be starting year 11 (when school grades actually start to count, send help) and have a bunch of new music projects in the works. I won't lie: every time I think about what I know 2017 has in store for me I get a bit stressed, however I am going to do my best to make it even better than 2016 was.
2016 has not been so great for the world. Terror attacks. Syria. The world's refugee crisis. The Manus Island and Nauru Refugee Detention Camps. Brexit. Donald Trump. Loss of many of the world's greats including David Bowie, Alan Rickman, Prince, Leonard Cohen, George Michael and Muhammad Ali.
However I'm lucky enough to call it one of the best years of my life (personally). I played over 50 gigs, released my first EP, did a TEDx performance, played on Canberra's biggest commercial radio station, sold out my first show, became an Australian National Busking Champion for the second year in a row, completed my 8th Grade AMEB violin exam, opened for my 9 year old self's role model's album launch, got the highest grades I've ever gotten, trained to become a Chiropractic Assistant, got involved with countless school events and had so much fun doing it and met some incredible people I am able to call my best friends.
Aside from that, I am most proud of how I've changed as a person this year. I learned to stand up for myself and be more assertive. While I'm still often quiet and a little scared to go talk to teachers if I have questions or confront a sound guy if he's got it all wrong, I am more able to voice my opinion when I think it's necessary rather than getting walked all over by others. The skill of assertiveness is vital when doing music, especially as a female and a young one at that. I guess I'm a lot more sure of myself now. I hope I don't come across as stuck up though! I get less intimidated by others now, and I'm more able to just go up on that stage, do my thing, and know I've done my best.
I've become much better at time management and working productively. Music really started to take off, but so did school. Suddenly, we were given college (year 11 & 12) level assessment tasks to prepare us for the following two years so things got more difficult. Before 2016, I had a tendency to be a bit of a last minute larry. I also had a lot of free time. This year, I had little to no free time each week and had to really buckle down as soon as I got my assessment and not spend hours aimlessly scrolling down my Facebook feed. My grades really improved this year thanks to my life forcefully making me manage my time properly.
I guess I came out of my shell this year. I was more confident in being myself. I've still got a long way to go, but I was a very different person at the beginning of 2016. I'm proud of who I've grown to be this year, and proud of who I've grown to be in such a short 15 years of living.
Bring on 2017!